Hard work.

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So I am not sure why but I totally did not anticipate grad school being this tough.  It is whooping my butt.  I’ve always enjoyed school and learning, I am a nerd like that.  BUT, I did not expect how overwhelming it was going to be.  A little over a year ago I decided that I needed to stop dragging my feet and enroll in the MBA program here at AU, since it is free to me as an employee.  Duh, right?  Well, I got about 3 courses in and there was a new program established that I switched over to because it is WAYYY more up my alley.  The official name of the Program is Master of Leadership for Service.  It is a program based on the idea of Servant Leadership, so less of a business focus and more of a serving others focus.  I absolutely LOVE this program,  we have entire classes on concepts such as  self-awareness, stewardship, being a good listener, presence etc.

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I am almost a year in and I have had so many “aha” moments and lessons that I can use right away in my life, not to mention I am learning a lot about myself and things I need to work on.  The only downside is that this is a weekend only program.  Which means all my classes are held every other Friday night and EVERY Saturday throughout the semesters.   So what do you get when you add that to two jobs?   You guessed it, no life.   When I am spent on Sunday night and the last thing I want to do is work on a 10 page paper or read a case study,  I make excuses in my head of why I should maybe “postpone” the program when I am “not so busy”.   And I say this even though I enjoy the program, but giving up the little precious time you have to yourself, even if it is to work towards something that is important to you, is still hard.  Sometimes you just have to suck it up and press on.  Life is always going to be busy.  If you do not find the time NOW to start reaching for your dreams, they will get harder and harder to achieve.  Not impossible of course, but harder.

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There are a lot of social gatherings I have to miss with friends, simply because  Saturday night is the only time I have to work on my paper, do laundry, cook for the week, clean, write workout plans, spend time with Shain etc.   Sometimes, I am a total flake and will  bail on plans at the last minute, 99% of the time this is because I am just simply exhausted.  I need to work on that.  My mental health is important to me, but I also need to respect other people’s plans. Luckily, I have the BEST friends and family and they understand.  The people that don’t understand, get phased out pretty quick.

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We often have to make a lot of sacrifices to reach a goal but THAT is exactly why it feels so good in the end.  If it was easy, everybody would do it.  If it was no skin off our back, we wouldn’t appreciate it as much.  Hard work feels GOOD.

Do you have something you have been itching to try, a goal you have had on your mind for a while now?  What is stopping you?  Fear of failure?  Time? In both of my professions I hear a lot of this ‘I don’t have time”.  Whenever somebody says that this is what I actually hear-“It’s not a priority”.  You will make time for the things that are important to you.  If you don’t,  they are not that important.  Period.   So stop wasting time on Facebook, watching mindless TV or sitting on your couch and go work towards something that MATTERS.  Start chipping away at your dreams.  One year from now, you will wish you had started today.

Stay blessed in the mess 🙂

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